So tomorrows the big day. The big day for me to get the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I know it’s only a consultation but what scares me is facing the facts. That possibly everything scary that I think about (dentures and getting ALL my teeth ripped out) will come true. That those words will ring out loud and clear. The Specialists mouth just moving in slow motion….. my heart pounding loud over his voice.

UGH! Ok… I think I can get over that initial fact but what I think scares me the most is the process of getting everything done and my completely out-of-control gag reflex.

Doing some research online, I found this great site called Dental Fear Central. I think I might just join the forum. There’s a great page on gagging and different ways to avoid it. I’ll definitely have to give some of those tips a try.

8:30pm: I’m relatively calm tonight. I thought I’d be more on edge. It’s probably due to the fact that I keep telling myself that this is just a consultation. I don’t even have to open my mouth but I’m so sure I will. The more I read on the Dental Forum the more calmer I’m becoming. It’s actually not much different then when I was trying to get over my fear of flying.

I think preparing myself mentally is the main focus of it all. I just have to keep looking towards the future. The STEAK I can eat! Raw carrots that I love. Apples…. not having to be picky about what I eat because I can’t chew things properly. It’s an utter embarrassment when dining out.

Hmmm…. with the right support, right dentist, right sedative…. I might just have this licked! EXCEPT… I still don’t want full mouth dentures..