I posted my first video this morning. Just goes to show how serious I am at getting through this the way I need to get through this. It’s sorta interesting when I think about it. When left alone to think about what’s coming up I tend to panic, over think, and then get shit scared to death. But when I open up to people, talk openly about things and get the feedback of others, I seem so much less frightened. So for me this is all a good thing.

Being at work Friday was a really bad day for me. Where I work was having a small little breakfast outing, cooking eggs and sausages for the employees as they came into the building… I passed it up because I couldn’t eat. Then all the reps were having a laugh talking about stuff they had done the night before and for some reason I got so down. I just didn’t want to be amongst the crowd of happy people when I knew what I would be facing in 3 days time.

Well, I got over it towards the end of the day. Decided this morning I would do a video to get myself started. It’s not much, I’m a bit embarrassed but it helps me! I had a hair appointment and just loved talking to Nikki (my hairdresser) about everything that I’m going through. She’s quite interested in how I’m gonna be and she just gave me that extra boost to say… “All right! Bring it on! I’m ready for my impressions Mr. Dentist!”

Ok so head on over to my *video section and check out my fist vblog.

Cheers mates!

*Due to technical difficulties, videos are not up at the moment. Please check back at a later date if you wish. I’m still working on it.