If you haven’t noticed in the previous post, I added an image 8 days after the extraction and bone grafting. I can smile a bit more now as the tightness is decreasing each day. I was told by Lyn that the bone grafting was very invasive. She is always allowed in when I’m at my appointments and she sees it all!

She has told me that my top temporary bridge was a pain because it wasn’t right and that Dr. Nirav tried for a good half hour to try and get it to fit right so if you look at the picture, you can see that one of the front teeth (the fake one) is bigger than my other front tooth (my real one). It also seems to be overlapping my real front tooth and my real canine on the left side. So, yeah, it’s a bit funny but I’m so sure that my permanents will NOT look like this. I’ll have a fit if they do! But Lyn said Dr. Nirav wasn’t pleased with them and that this is the best he could do.

Not sure if I mentioned that my next appointment isn’t until the 10th of January. I probably did but truly, I think my natural forgetfulness is kicking in more than what the Ativan does to me. Seems I’m consistently asking Lyn the same questions over and over again. At times it frightens me.

So the post title “Annoyance” merely means that these plastic hunks of teeth in my mouth really are annoying me. Sometimes they feel fine, other times I feel like my teeth are trying to pull apart and I just feel pressure. Talking is a total annoyance even tho I have people telling me “only you hear it”. Well I’m sorry, it’s difficult to talk without saliva spraying from all sides of my mouth and air pockets forming in my cheeks and puffing out from other letters. S’s, Z’s, C’s, P’s and F’s are my problem letters. Unless I’m prepared to talk, people should just stand back or carry one of those little drink umbrella’s to protect themselves. Lyn told me to keep practicing with s words but seriously… it cannot be done! And I”m getting really annoyed that people say “you’ll get used to it, you’ll learn how to talk”. What they don’t get is that it’s not in their mouth. They have NO idea how hard it is. They also have no idea that a bridge is just that a BRIDGE… these pieces of plastic do not cover my gums.. there is a gap, which allows air and fluid to pass through. People with normal teeth don’t have that problem. Frustrates me to no end sometimes.

The other part of the post… “Stress”… am I feeling it? But of course. This whole entire dental plan, treatment has just consumed me. Exhausts my mind and my head, worrying about the next appointment, still scared shitless of how the next one will go. Wondering if I’ll gag again, fearing I’ll gag again. These thoughts consume me day in and day out. It’s not an easy thing to go through especially when it’s something you’ve feared for half your life… MORE than half your life. I need my loved ones to understand that this does a number on me both physically and mentally and it’s very draining. I’m constantly trying to stay positive but every idle moment my brain gets is instantly consumed with dental shit. Not an idle moment will go by without me NOT thinking of my next appointment or some other thing in relation to dental treatments. Sometimes my only outage is through the dental forum because it helps me deal. Or writing a post to help me deal.

Regardless I have another 8 or so months to go yet which means 8 more months of stress, pain, healing, and mental anguish.

On another note: I wrote to the first dentist I went to for the consultation and gave him a piece of my mind! :p Probably won’t get a reply, but I’ll be shocked if I do.